Day Four – A Song That Makes Me Sad:

This is a difficult one for me to write about. Not that I didn’t know what song I was going to use for this day. It’s more because “Brick” by Ben Folds Five, written and released back in 1997, disturbs me even to this day.

The song itself is haunting; the piano is beautiful yet sad. But it’s the lyrics to the song that get me every time.

I remember reading somewhere that Ben Folds had written this song in regards to an experience he had with his high school girlfriend. It’s not hard to figure out what had happened if you read the entire lyrics to the song.

But regardless, it’s the chorus that hits close to home with me … especially after all the years of emotional turmoil I’ve had on my travels through Infertility. And during those years (and even more days than none, recently) I’ve felt like *I* was a brick; I was so heavy with every negative emotion out there.

And since the song is written in a male’s perspective, I somehow relate it to what my husband has gone (continues to go?) through. And that the more “heavy” I am as the “brick” … the more likely I am to “drown” him in my own sorrow. I just hate knowing that I’ve probably brought (and continue to bring?) Hubby down.

So yes. That’s why this song makes me sad.

Ultimately I know Hubby and I are in this marriage together. For better or worse. And that he’s by my side because he loves me unconditionally.

It’s because of that reason that my “brick” feel a little less heavy. And I love him fiercely because of that.

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What is with this 30-day song challenge?

What was yesterday‘s song?