"You'd be happy wrapped in my apron strings"
Day Four – A Song That Makes Me Sad:
This is a difficult one for me to write about. Not that I didn’t know what song I was going to use for this day. It’s more because “Brick” by Ben Folds Five, written and released back in 1997, disturbs me even to this day.
The song itself is haunting; the piano is beautiful yet sad. But it’s the lyrics to the song that get me every time.
It’s no surprise that I consider myself a pre-cursor to a Fangirl.** And I say “pre-cursor” because I certainly am not one that is completely obsessed with my favorite characters or actors; Johnny Depp notwithstanding (of course). And I certainly don’t “role-play” like some fangirls and fanboys do. Call it being a product of growing up as an adolescent and teenager in the early 80’s … but I consider myself more a Pop Culture enthusiast, than a Fangirl. I know more Pop Culture trivia and particular TV shows/movies than I know anything about Manga or RPG characters in the latest PS3 game.
Or as Cee Lo Green might say, “I guess (s)he’s more XBox. And I’m more Atari.”
So it shouldn’t be a surprise that, last night I was on the couch watching Spiderman 2 in HD and reading the Wolverine & Jubilee*** comic at the same time. After all, my number one Fanboy (aka Hubby) was also on the couch next to me reading his entire pile of comics and was the one responsible for choosing our TV selection.
Darling Hubby,
Fourteen years ago, I gave my heart over to you completely. Which makes no sense, because I’m sure you won my heart over the first moment I climbed into that canoe with you on your sixteenth birthday. Of course, I refused to listen to my heart that day and kept you at arm’s length for two years after that fateful moment.
But once I took that leap of faith (and kissed you first ), I knew that you’d be the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Fourteen years ago today, we sealed our love with our marriage vows … and despite the ups and downs in life we’ve had, I wouldn’t trade any moment of it. I would hold your hand and take every leap of faith with you, over and over again.
Happy Anniversary, Hubby!
Love Moves in Mysterious Ways
(music and lyrics by Julia Fordham)
Who’d have thought
this is how the pieces fit?
You and I
shouldn’t even try making sense of it
I forgot how we ever came this far
I believe we had reasons
but I don’t know what they are
So blame it on my heart, oh
Love moves in mysterious ways
It’s always so surprising
when love appears over the horizon
I’ll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it’s a mystery
of how you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Heaven knows
love is just a chance we take
We make plans
but then love demands a leap of faith
So hold me close
and never let me go
‘Cause even though we think we know
which way the river flows
That’s not the way love goes, no
Love moves in mysterious ways
It’s always so surprising
when love appears over the horizon
I’ll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it’s a mystery
of how you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Like the ticking of the clock
two hearts beat as one
But I’ll never understand
the ways it’s done
Love moves in mysterious ways
It’s always so surprising
when love appears over the horizon
I’ll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it’s a mystery
of how you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
As performed by Filipino singer, Nina
I can’t believe it’s already the last few days of August. Where has the time gone?
All I know is that Hubby & I have been busy non-stop since returning to the “Flat Fields” of the Midwest.** We returned to Chi-town (via Detroit after Seattle) on Thursday and have pretty much been packing up our apartment since then.
Yes, I know. We should have been packed for our move to our new apartment before leaving for our Alaskan Adventure … but if you recall from this post, exactly where we were going to live was still up in the air right up until just before we left for Alaska.
And then there’s the whole matter of me flying out to North Carolina today … which also happens to be the only day in which we’d be able to pick up the keys to our new place.
Yes … the trip to North Carolina in which I’ll be attending my New Employee orientation for my new job. For an entire week. The same week in which we’d need to hand in the keys to our old apartment by Tuesday night.
So if you haven’t figured it out by now … this means that:
Uh-huh. That’s right. I’ve totally bailed on Hubby. And believe me … I feel absolutely horrible about it.***
What’s worse is that Tuesday is our 14th Wedding Anniversary … and we won’t even be in the same state! This will be the first time we’ll have been apart during any type of special day. Boo.
And tomorrow … well, tomorrow I start my new job. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous, but I guess the only thing I can do is go into it with my head held high … and pray for the best.
Despite all the “brick walls” we’ve been encountering lately, I must admit that I’m excited with all these new changes: nicer (yet smaller) and more affordtable apartment, and a new career direction.
I just wish the timing of it all didn’t suck.
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** Ugh … totally sucks not seeing mountains in the background anymore. We so miss Seattle right about now!
*** Thank you (from the bottom of my heart) to my In-Laws, who are currently in Chicago helping Hubby out!!