But like the Bozo Punching bag, I still come up smiling.
Thanks for all the wonderful comments and words of encouragement that y’all have given me. I truly do feel the love out there. It literally made me shed a few tears … knowing that I’ve got some really good internet buddies and IRL buddies (soon to be both … can’t wait!) that care as much as they do about my well-being.
Wednesday at work was extremely frustrating and … quite frankly … much too overwhelming to deal with. And after attending my weekly meeting for this work group, I decided to go home. Mentally, I could not even process what my tasks at hand were. What good am I if I can’t think?
So I wrapped up what I was currently working on prior to the meeting, shut down my computer and promptly told my supervisor that I wasn’t feeling so well and was heading home. And seriously, I wasn’t … I had this horrible headache (most likely Lupron-induced), my nose was stuffed (d*mn allergies) and I was actually feeling quite nauseated (most likely from just the negativity at work).
I slept away the rest of the afternoon. And boy, did I need that. Just the comfort of having my two kitties on either side of me as I lounged about was the best thing I could have done for myself. I totally needed to decompress.
So the next morning, I reinflated myself (but not necessarily my ego. I have self-esteem issues … can’t you tell?) and walked back into work with a smile on my face and my head held high.
Because seriously … whatever bad day / days I may have … however many times I get knocked down … I still have to somehow pick myself off the ground and come up smiling.
Thanks again for all your wonderfully warm wishes and sentiments. You. Guys. Rock.
Doh. Apparently I was still too wrapped up in my own drama to comment and support last post – I’m glad that you recognize how much everyone loves you though! You are awesome 🙂
I’m so glad you went home for the afternoon. Sometimes you just need to do that, and it sounds like it was the perfect plan. I’m amazed how much a good nap can cure, at least temporarily.
Can’t wait to see you next week….
XO
The yarn harlot (yarnharlot.com) who is a knitting blogger, has this great story about setting up tents in the pissing rain, at 3 am, after biking about 50 km. And she and her best friend are doing it, because the children are children, and they are adults. And her friend who is wet and tired looks at her and swears from the bottom of his soul and says “sometimes I hate being and adult”. Is it like this?
I hate being responsible and rational and all adult like sometimes.
i am glad that you are feeling better. xoxo
I am so sorry you’re feeling down. On top of everything else you have going on, Lupron can make anyone feel crazy.
When will you start your stims? I’m starting my next IVF cycle in about two weeks. Fingers crossed that June will be a lucky month for both of us!!
I’m glad you’re feeling better. My friend says that when you have an emotionally crappy day that it’s a “two-cat-day” (as opposed to a three-dog-night), ‘cos you need one snuggled on one side, and one on the other! I am glad that you took what seemed like a much needed rest. And I do sincerely hope that things will get better for you at work. You deserve it.