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I almost believe you’ve been trying to tell me something those last few weeks before we last saw each other in person. You started to be more clingy than usual. And by clingy, I mean that you stayed by me on your own accord more than normal. I didn’t call you or mention your name in conversation to summon you. I didn’t have any eye contact or pet you enticing you to follow me. Suddenly, you were just there.
Don’t get me wrong, I loved it. And I love that you were my shadow pretty much everywhere I went. Having you by my side in your bed when I’m working from home is the best; especially when it’s the end of my shift. You were always so “sleep-drunk” happy when it was time to go downstairs.
That is the biggest regret I have, Kirby. I should have known. As your Momma, I should have recognized it and I did not. And the closer to the trip we got, the more you clung to me. There was no more, “pretend growl” every night when I went to kiss that heart on your head. There was little resistance when I wanted to hold your paw while we cuddled. You even let me clean your eyes and play with your ears. I just should have known.